Vanity, Def. Vanity

So I was thinking about the seven deadly sins and whether or not they are really sins. I think my sins are to be a glotona, jealousy and vanity. Def. Vanity. I don't mean to think highly of myself when I don't need to but I can't help it. In some ways I feel that I am better than other people, and then I think about that and I see that I am not. I can see how this could get ugly. When I see someone who is acting superior to me, my reaction is to do the same. Is that really a sin? Even though I know that everyone is equal to each other, and this is what I preach, why do these feelings arise in me? I am also a jealous person. I think it has to do with having really bad middle child syndrome. My mother was always with my little sister, and my dad was always with my older sister. I on the other hand was left with the dog, her name was Guasona. (It means the female version of The Riddler from Batman) I guess as time passed I learned to live lonely. I have a vivid imagination, and sometimes I even have imaginary friends. I know, I seem crazy but it's actually entertaining for me. I get jealous with friends like I would in a relationship. My friends need to call me or I'll dump them, lol.

I also over indulge on food. I think it has to do with not having enough when I was younger. We always had a big family, so my mom would do groceries once a week. Everyone would eat the junk food first and not leave me any. So I learned how to pick at other people's food, and eat my own so I wouldn't go hungry. I used to eat my little sister's meatballs because I would tell her they were poop and she would give them to me. I was horrible, I know this. Till this day my family gives me extra food, and their left overs even if I don't want it. They want to get me really fat.LOL